a normal day,,, it is... =)

sama nang loob dahil may mga bagay na hindi pa nalilinaw...hanggang ngayun may mga tanong sa isip ko kung kasalanan ko ba talaga o hindi...lumisan ka nang tuluyan ang pag trato mo sa akin di ko talaga matanggap...bakit ganun?.. nagkulang ba talaga ako sa pagunawa?..nagkulang ba ako sa oras?sa pagmamahal?.. ano na magagawa ko ngayung wala ka na? hinihiling ko nalang sana masaya ka at may nagaalaga sayo at nagmamahal tulad nang ginawa ko..Paano ba kita malilimutan dahil lahat nang magandang nangyari pilit kong naaalala..sa panaginip ikaw pa din..tumayo ako nang walang humawak sa aking mga kamay pero pati alaala nating dalawa nasa puso ko pa..pinipikit ko nalang ang aking mata at pinipigil na umagos ang luhang ayaw kong masayang...sabay sabing.."siguro nga hindi mo ko minahal..." nakakalungkot oo.. pero ano pang magagawa ko?..hindi naman pwedeng ipagpatuloy pa natin ito..." magiisang taon nadin kitang mahal...pinilit kong hindi mahulog... pero ganun talaga..Hindi natin malalaman ang mangyayari bukas..sa isang linggo.. pero hihintayin kita kahit gaano pa ako masaktan..isang araw babalik ka pero alam kong babalik ka nang may kasama ka nang iba..at asahan mo hanggang bukas mahal pa din kita kahit nasaktan mo ako nang lubusan...makita man kitang may kasamang iba alam ko masaya ka at masaya na din ako para sayo... ganito ang buhay... may dumadating at naglalaho.. pero kahit gaano kalalim ang sugat maghihilom ito at matututo ka..sa mga bagay na nasabi ko sana matandaan mo... "pag iniwan ka niya nandito lang ako..mahal ka pa din..iintayin.. at may magaalaga sayo kahit alam kong mahal mo siya..."
Poem ko ...haha.. nasulat ko siya last night kasi wala lang masama loob.. pero totoo lahat yan... =) nakakalungkot no..=( hay.. hanngang dito nalng.. happy 07..=( =( wah monthsary ata nila!!!! =(

I love this day...

i woke up today feeling so contented..somehow all the sadness were washed away... =) i realized that i can live on my own... and the good news is..."i had managed to let go and move on and choose the path where i want to go.." someday i will meet him... =) hahaha... i will meet my very handsome prince charming... handsome at heart and in mind...=) at 7:30 in the morning i took the physics test... ow man... it's hard... =( pout...=( but i answered it carefully... the test went well... but computer??? sucks... =( haha... at 10 am i was hanging out at the third year corridor...and smile to everyone i know... =) and guess what??? my friend asked me if im inlove... i told her.. (nah uh...hehe..wla ngang crush tska boyfriend inlove pa kaya..." hehe.. =) actually im not into relationships this time... of course there is someone waiting for me and i think i like him because he's been there for me through ups and downs.. =) and i really appreciate that effort... he's been there for me when im crying about my ex boyfriend...and duh... as if you care.. at exActly 11 am.. i went to jollibee to munch on the hamburger cheesemelt... the one im craving since yesterday.. =) we go back to the school... then uhuh.. went to practce until 5:00 pm.. and now i just got home and hell yeah!! im tired... =( i think im going to sleep after this... mennn... whata day but i feel happy.... =) =)
>sorreee pero.... kailangan kita kalimutan... soreee tlaga... basta pangako hindi ka na babalik ha ayaw ko na tlaga promise..=( masakit lang.. =( hehe... +drama... practice lang...+

Somebody help me from drowning...

My day started like a rainy day.. somehow i fell something is missing.. i woke up from a dream that someone is running after me and calling me to come back and i woke up with tears falling down from my eyes..in my dreams i saw the boy i always loved the boy who made me so happy yet so sad...i started my day with all the bad things running into my mind..i really need help.. =( in our homeroom period my teacher asked what's going on with my life being the person who wants to share everything i told them it was not good because someone or something is missing..but i said that everything has a reason..I suddenly stopped talking and realized that maybe God has another plans for me.. but still the anger the depression is still inside me.. i want to shout and put all the anger away.. i want to cry my heart out to all those who knew and to all those who can help... but my teacher said "if your feeling weak..find smebody who is strong enough to catch you..." i chose God to be with because i know i can open to hIM all my problems .. in him no pretentions and no worries.. =(.. in our cle class my teacher shared a quote that helps go through the problems i have.. this is the quote.. "Loving the lord is the greatest romance,,searching Him is the greatest adventure and being with him is the tru source of Happiness.. " yes that's true... He is my only friend whom i can confide all my problems... =( and someday i know he will hold my hand and take away all my sadness,,anger away and help me live a new life..sigh.. if only people knew that's the way i feel today.. =( you may see me smiling but deep inside ouch... =( =( but i know... i can be free from it someday....

What a day...

hi,, =) pursh tym blog ko ito..hmm ngayung araw na ito wala naman masyadong nangyari...pero tiniis ko pa din hindi itext siya kasi wala naman nakakapagod kasi pag nagtetext ako wala naman sagot.. =( how sad.. pero somehow happy pa din ako kasi may friens naman ako.. hmm.. panu ba agandahin to sana mapaganda ko blog ko.. =( parang wala lang i can't imagine na maganda magagawa ko..=( sana may powers ako.. hehehe.. =) so eto nalang muna.. next tym ulit.. =)